almost start of a new year...

so i made it thru christmas... it was a good christmas..... lots of presents .. lots of food... lots of family time... i love christmas but this year it didnt really seem like christmas...but it was good.... so timothee is on christmas break... and since we watch shows together over skype all the time... i am super proud to say that we have almost watch the whole first season of glee :) hahah yes we both love that show... so for new years we will probably finish it.... so its almost france time again... i cant wait.. to go but i am kinda nervous about taken the plane ride again but i am sure it will be fine... seeing timothee is going to be worth all the crazy airport drama lol well i am out it is shower time then i think i might take my nephews to see yogi bear :) have a great day

When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible

...... oh the quotes... i love this one too this one applys to me .... no fun.. being in long distance and meeting the person who is the most amazing....totally awesome... cutest...... funniest boy in the world.. who makes you feel like you are the most greatest person in the world... yes then you are think mmm WHY WAIT lets do this... but on a happy note like 2 more months til i see my sweet boyfriends face again.. which means that we are also so close to the most romantic day of the whole year... VALENTINES DAY ... yes for once in years i am more pumped for valentines day then christmas.. well its bed time :) have a good night 

a new day

I believe in pink. I believe laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles...

Audrey Hepburn

i love this quote... i love the color pink.. i love laughing.. i love kissing (timothee can tell you that) .. i love being happy lately i lost a lot of happy times but i have a feeling that it is going to be good ;) i havent always been strong when things go wrong.. i always end up yelling or crying but noone is prefect.... i always think that tomorrow is a new day and i love that.. and miracles i have seen miracles and i know that they are good :) i love it... i love how tomorrow night i am going to watch the christmas devotional with mr roll tomorrow night... two months and i will be seeing his face :) and kissing his lips.... well happy thoughts are now here...

so 21 more days til christmas which means december is almost over then january then FRANCE :) i cant wait to be with timothee again.. i think thats why i am not in the christmas mood that much is because this year i am in love with the most greatest guy ever and i am not going to be with him sure we will skype and open presents but it just wont be the same... ok so i am not really in the holiday mood this year.. i just cant wait for christmas to be over... i am writing my blog and watching timothee sleep lol ... well i posted some of my favorite photos from france :) enjoy

this is one of my favorites we went to paris for the weekend.. nothing better then kissing the love of your life under the eiffel tower

this is not a really good one of me but it is at disney world  where all your dreams come true....

me and timbo :) this is a favorite one too... we were at institute :)

another one :)

i love this one :)

another one :)

lately i am sure i am a horrible girlfriend cause i been pretty moody but i am so grateful for timothee he is an amazing boyfriend and i am so lucky to have him... even if i dont tell him alot..
TIMOTHEE YVES ROLL
I LOVE YOU
WITH ALL MY HEART

so its been a while

hello blog world... people probably dont read anymore cause i havent been writing in a while.. but today i decided to write quick... i am baking some christmas goodies ,... peanut butter balls.. which is probably my favorite christmas goodie ... mm EVER :):) they make me super happy... and soooo good :) so today i woke up to wonderful emails and a phone call from timothee :) i wake up too that every morning.. i have a super great boyfriend... well that depends on the day ;) hahah just kidding.. so timothee got a new video game :) ok so my boyfriend loves his playstation 3 and normal i complain about him playing... first i think ok you can do something so much better then spending four hours a day in front of your tv playing and second whats the whole point.. ok i had some talks with other girls who feel the same way.. but today i changed my mind... first yes cause i found a sweet game that i can play well he plays gran turismo... so we just skype and play games lol i know nerds but it is what he loves and you know what i realized that yes it is annoying and weird but it is what he loves... and that is good.. he could be doing a lot of worse things then play video games... and hopefully when we get married he will only play for like 1 hours every week hahah hey a girl can dream.... but i am actually pretty pumped to play gran turismo.. for the first week when i go to france timothee will be in school... so yes i will be playing a lot ... lol.....

 

i cant wait to go back to france.... 

so today is the day that i would love to be in france... ok yes i wanna go there to see timothee which i am sure you all know that.. but today is the day that BOYCE AVENUE plays in france... ok so i have loved them for like mmm a year or so...i listen to them all the time... so i was crazy pumped to hear that they were going to france... so i was like alright i will stay that long just to see them.. but yes that didnt turn out i came home like 16 days before they came yes my heart is breaking a little right now... like really people you have no idea how much i wanted to see them... hahah i am complaining but i could of stayed in france longer why didnt i ... right now i would be at the concert with timothee screaming my head off... then later maybe meeting them and getting a photo taken with them... i am complaining cause i am stupid yes that is right i am stupid .. i wanted to see boyce avenue and i could of but i didnt stay so now i will just eat a huge bag of candy watch a boy and cry a little :( but i am sure they will go back in france and next time they go ... THIS LADY WILL BE THERE .... well have a good night :)

my cute boyfriend wrote me a song :)

ok so when i woke up in this morning this was in my hotmail... just another reason why i love this boy a lot.... it all weird and funny i know,... but you get how cute it is... if you wanna see it better go on my facebook :) but timothee is mmm AWESOME :) and i love him times a million :)

hello blog world ... so i havent been really writing a lot and people are probably not reading my blog anymore cause i am not in france :( but super soon i will be back in the city of love with my love :) so we started reading together again :) even tho its only been a couple of days somethings changed some things didnt... but everyday is a new day :) and a new chapter... i have been looking for plane tickets to go back to france i cant wait.. i need to start studying online for french it is going to be a little hard but i am sure timothee can help me with the stuff i need ya for a super cute french boy :) so in closing is my super cute boyfriend :) that i super love a lot... timothee is great .. he help me so much and i am grateful for him.... :)

 in 92 more days i see this boy again :)

briane by boyce avenue :):) another awesome song

:)

ya for another great day :) last night i babysit for my sister... i just love my nieces and nephews so much :) it was fun... braelynn is so funny :) then it was skype time with timothee .... then it was bedtime :) i had a little trouble feeling asleep last night... but finally i found it... then work up this morning to timothees voice saying baby :) i love waking up to his voice.. then back to sleep and being woke up by my lovely nephew zackery at 630 so i feel back asleep between texting timothee and listen to the boys fight and hearing the rain ... then skype with timothee... then just playing with the kids.. i babysit the girls well my sister and trevor took the boys swimming lessons ... i was feeding cassidy she eats alot hahah no wonder she is so chubby lol.. i just love her then me and my sister went to a craft fair thing... i wasnt going to buy anything but i went anyways.. so we went there and we just look around then i saw this sign .. it says i love you to the moon and back... so i love that saying.. i actually say it to timothee all the time.. so it was pink with white writing and yellow stars and a moon....so i got it :) i am totally going to put it up in our house when we get married :) it was so super cute .. then we skype and i showed him .. he was like wow i cant believe you found that... yes it was super awesome.. then i went to visit this man from our church with the elders.. it felt really good to go see him.. then it was back to my sisters eat some pizza talk to timothee... now i am just waiting for a movie.. then it watching that texting my lover boy and sleep :)

good morning :)

i had a wonderful sleep last night... a good whole 10 hours :)
i love to sleep like mmm love it...
yesterday was a good day... i skype with timothee a little in the morning then got ready and went shopping with lisa :) it was fun... laugh my freaking head off tons.. i also got timothee a valentines day present... :) i know it is super soon for valentines day and i should be thinking about christmas but valentines day is when we are going to be together so i think that one will be super special :) ok so then it was home skype with timothee and we watch one tree hill :) can i just say how freaking happy  i am that timothee loves those shows like glee and one tree hill and grays... since the beginning we started to watch them... we were together for a lot of them but now that we are apart we still watch them,... we just skype and watch them at the same time :) i am so happy that he is watching them with me :) then it was bedtime for timothee... this week we are 4 hours apart but starting sunday morning we are back to 5 hours :) but it is alright... so then i just chilled with my mom and talked to her and then it was bed time for moi :) alright so sleep time... like i said before i freaking love to sleep :) alright so i had a crazy dream but a good one ... so i had this dream that i got a package from timothee in the mail but on it.. it said dont open til we are on skype.. so i called him and was like alright i got your package go on skype... so then he did and i was like alright i am opening it... so it came with a cd and a gift... he was like you have to watch the cd then i will tell you to open the gift so i was like alright so i pop in the cd on just watched it then it was time to open the gift.. so has i was opening the gift it was a ring then why i looked up on the cd timothee was down on one knee asking me to marry him... hahaha so the good old dream made me happy ... when i woke up i was like wow that is super cute.. then i told him about it ... he just laughed... alright so i am going to watch ellen :) bake a yumo cake... then it is shower... then doctors...... then eyebrows then the elders are coming over skype with timothee and watch glee... i have a really busy day :) well have a good one... blog world

oh i am so in LOVE with this boy :) ya for skype :)

happy thoughts :)

so today i am going to do my blog a little different hahah not much is going on in my life these days lol being home and finally adjusted to the time change .. had a date with my besties lisa :) .. i freaking love this photo of us :) i have knew lisa for about almost 3 years hahah i know for about almost hahah... lisa is my best girlfriend i have :) i tell this lady everything.. we first met at the greatest school on earth hahah the good old Academy lol but every since then we have been best friends so that place was a good thing for that ... we had many sleep overs, went camping ... fixed the tent with a knife :) yes we are tent fixer uppers lol driving with the photo of shoell haha and the lady working on the road was staring... we went on many adventures :) down a muddy road lol... tons of shopping.. working at penningtons together :) sitting on the counters .. going to the haunted house in ktown... hahah that was a great night .. lisa is a GREAT friend .. and i love her times a million trillion :)

My most favorite photo of us :)

also long distance is grand :) i see timothee in 97 days hahah i know it is far away but the countdown is on :) i am glad that i will be with him for valentines day ... christmas and new years eve alone will suck but at least we have skype and plus i am glad we have holidays to make it go faster... so going back to france makes me happy :) hahah even tho i have only been there one time ... i LOVE france.. its my second home... so i have to learn french... alright ... thats my goal...
some goals before i see timothee..
1) learn french :) this is a must... i mean his family was great in speaking to me in english but poor timothee my litte translator ...
2) save extra money... i had a lot of money (thanks mom and dad) but i need to save some money...
3) get in shape.. hahah yes i know this isnt really a goal before seeing timothee but it is a good one to work one :)
4) love him a lot til i see him again... this is probably not going to change if anything i would fall in love with him more... but i just need to realize that he is great and i am pretty much lucky to have him :)
5) PRAY THAT THE NEXT 97 DAYS GO BYE SUPER FAST
well i am out... gotta get ready :)have a good day blog world

5 months :)

so today marks the 5 months me and timothee have been together... :) it has been a little rough with long distances and stuff but its good... he has my heart and its all good :) we are going to see each other in 2 or 3 months... i am going to go back in feb :) timothee has 2 weeks off of school and he is going to be studying but thats doesnt really bother me as long has we are together :) then i think in may he is going to come for awhile to do his ojt for school in canada then just stay for the summer... :) we have a lot of planning all good things :) well yesterday was halloween... so went to church then went to watch the boys swim :) it was great... zack was so pumped to see me :) then when we were waiting i got brae some candy :) she is the funniest kid ever... i just wanna keep her forever... then after that i came home and skype with my cute boyfriend :) then it was a little nap then more skyping i am so very lucky that timothee likes to skype with me :) then it was supper with the elders and just chilling ... then they watch a movie and i skype with timothee some more... then my sister come over and the kids were so cute in their hallowen outfits... i was still skyping with tim and they wanted to show him what they were wearing ... zack was dressed up has a ninja logan a vampire josh a pirate brae was a cowgirl and cassie was a witch... i am so glad that they get super pumped to talk to timothee.. :) they love him which is so good :) brae just goes crazy when she sees him and always wants to talk to him.. she was like i talk to timmy :) then she was like hi timmy lol ... then i chilled with them for a bit... then they left... then it was skype time again then bed... last night was the first time in awhile that i had a great sleep.. me and timothee skype on the phone... and just feel asleep.. i was having a sorta hard time with something and he was just there and was so good :) i could hear him breathing and even if he was miles away it felt like he was just here with me :) i love him for that.. i love how he puts up with my craziness and still loves me tons... i look forward to seeing him super soon... but i know that when i do see him i will be ever so grateful :) long distance is rough but i know that we are begin takin care of... :) well write later....

back home

well today was my first full day back home... it was a little weird to go home last night....
we woke up in the morning .. well i woke up early and went in to timothèes room to wake him up.. cause we still had 15 minutes :) so it was nice to just hug him for extra time.. then it was to get ready then leave :( i went in the bathrrom to brush my teeth and use the bathroom ok so results for crying a lot the night before and in the morning were red puffy blood shot eyes :( .. i cant even breathe i am crying so much :( then we go downstairs and timothee is like i am just going to say goodbye to my parents i was like ok... so i was just looking out the window trying not to cry incase his parents come out... then i hear him so i am like ok.. then i see his mom coming behind him and he is wiping his tears... my heart was breaking ... then i started to cry it was awful ... but then it was hugs and goodbyes to his parents.. i miss them a lot they were awesome :) then it was to the airport crying was most def in the car on the way... my eyes were all red.. then we arrive on we check in my luggage and then it was our last breakfast then it was time to say goodbye :( saying goodbye to the person you love the most is the hardest thing in the world... i know i will see him again its just the though that wow i am not going to feel his touch or smell his smell for a little bit... so goodbyes were hard ... but then it was time on my own... i never took a plane by myself before so i was a little scared :( but timothee was good at giving my lots of tips and all that good stuff... so when i got to my gate i called him... when i was sitting there all i could think about was running back and not leaving him :(  i wanted so bad to run back and just stay in france forever :) but i was fine.. then boarding the plane walking thru to go to the plane ... i was alright then i got on it.. a little teary eye... know that it will be awhile before i see france and timothee... plane ride was good... then it was london found my way to the gate and talked to timothee for a bit :) then it was on a plane again for almost 7 hours longest time of my whole freaking life but on the way i just kept thinking that i am fine i will be with my family :) i will talk to timothee alot and i will be good :) so landing in hali :) then going thru the doors and i was like looking around for my family ... i was like what the flip .. then i see my dad coming thru the crowd :) i was so happy to see them :) then i saw my mom then it was driving home a little weird not being with tim.. but i was ok... i fell asleep then i was home being home was weird just walking in my house.. and sleeping in my bed ... ya i cried a little cause i miss timothèe.. but things are good... just like normal i am writing on my blog he is playing video games.. and we are skyping... well it shower then watch some tv in english :)

my last day in france :(

ok i will try not to cry ... but i probably will.... so begin my last day in france i need to do stuff... i need to pack and also get a box ready to mail my clothes.. i have been here for 32 days so i have brought alot of stuff.. hence why i have to mail a box of clothes home.. lol ... alright so last night was date night.. we went out with timothèes sister and husband :) they are so funny... his sister is so freaking awesome and his brother in law well he looks like bradley cooper lol but it was a good night of chinese food, laughs, and of course a movie..  we went to see the town.. it was in french but i understood it  a little.... so right now i am just chilling in tim's room with his nephew he is playing video games so it seems like tim is here with me :) but he is not his is at school :( so last night after we got back we just have a talk and then tim came in my room and we just cuddle for a bit then he was like ok i am going to bed... i love you.. good night.. i heard the door close and started to cry ok.... i was like oh freak my last day in france so i cried for like what seem like forever then i went in his room.... he was just lay in his bed... i came in with my nose running and tears just fallen fast down my face ... he was like whats wrong.. i was like i am going to miss you a lot.... then he just held me in his arms and i just cried.... ok i am glad to be going home i am pumped to see my family... i am so glad to get hugs from my nephews and neices.. i am exicited to go out with my sister and just chill... i just wish i was taken timothee with me ..... i wish i could just put him in my suitcase and take him forever... but i know that we are strong and going back to long distances sucks butt ... but i know that we can do this... its not a huge deal... but it sucks ... but i am in love with this boy like crazy .... he is the greatest boyfriend.. he is funny.. he is nice... he is caring... he is strong... he is MINE :) i am lucky to be in love with him and even tho we are not together in the same place... we are going to be good.. i woke up today with him coming in my room to give me a kiss and tell me he loves me and he will see me tonight.. yes for my last day timothee is at school .. but thats ok cause he needs to be there and to do well which i am sure he will do awesome :) then i fall back asleep and woke up to the cute email that made me cry... there is a quote that i love  

missing someone isn't easy, but having someone to miss is wonderful, and even better is the anticipation and excitement of getting to see them again.

i will miss tons of things about france... the weather.. the food... timothees family ... tons of shops... waken up to timothee kisses every morning and just being with him... fallen asleep in his bed watching movies or playing video games... ( i fall asleep he  is sitting up watching the movie or playing video games..) his hugs.. his smile... his funny jokes... him taken forever in the bathroom... going to church with him... eating double cheeseburgers lol... but i know that this is not the end of us only a chapter in the book of diana and tim :) we will see each other again in 2 months or 3 and when we do we will be has happy has ever... i love this boy :) well i must go and start packing and doing all that fun stuff before timothee comes home... we are going shopping tonight and just doing fun things :) so tomorrow i fly out at 10:10 france time so pei time 5:10 AM and i arrived in halifax at 5:55 PM with a 4 hour stop in london.. so i am sorta pooping my pants cause i never went on a plane alone before so this a huge step lol... i mean when we took the plane here or to paris timothee showed me where to go and what to do .. he did everything... so now i am like oh great lol but i have 4 hours in london so i am sure i will know what to do ... and plus the people there speak english so i am sure they will help me... hopefully lol... but i am out... peace out.... goodbye from france :) 

also this photo was taken last night before we went out.. yes i will be stealing that pink shirt :)

so ya my ear is almost back to normal again :) yes :) so last night we had family home evening it was nice :) then we eat some pizza supper good.. then it was snail time.. hahah at first i was like mmm no... ( i hate trying something new) but then i was like alright its just a little thing i can swallow it in big gulp... hahah so jonathon told me how to get it out of the shell.. but i failed at it so timothee helped me out.. then i saw it.. it kind of look like poop with green stuff on it.. but i was like alright just think about something else.. and bam i put it in my mouth and just chew fast... like fast.. then bam it was gone.. alright so it sorta tasted like mussels.. but then they were like oh you should of got a photo of you eating it.. so i was like alright so i eat another one just for photos this one was huge .... just has i started to chew it fell apart and i felt a gross part of it ... i had to drink water to finish it....

 

so this my new friend.. yes i realize my face is super stupid.. :( but oh well

 so this is me, the snail and its shell... timothee is smiling cause he didnt eat one

 yes i know a retardo face again :( but it was actually just at the point that i felt what i thought was a vein

just a little drink to wash it down...

so after snails and a great family home evening of course whats comes next ... of course arm wrestling... of course not me and timothee but him and jonathan..... i was kind of pumped to see who was going to win

getting started... i guess those are they game faces :) look at the huge guns on timothee ;)

hahah they are still smiling...

and the winner is JONATHAN ....
so after that me and timothee watch the simpson... had pray together.. then went to sleep:) just only 2 more days till i go back to pei... i am so grateful for the time i was in france and got to meet timothèes family :) they are really awesome and great and i super love them alot :) have a good day write day 

some photos of my sister family :)

the kids :) oh i just love them to pieces :) 

so zack most def needs a haircut:) but they are still super super cute ... i cant wait to give them millions of kisses ..

my sister and trevor :) 

miss brae lynn :)

 this photo kills me ... 

 the boys :) 

miss cassidy :)

Has you can tell i miss these little ones alot but i look forward to seeing them in 3 days :)

so my last week in france :( its been a great time in france like awesome i love this place times a million :) tims family is so great :) and his friends are great too... so i guess i just have fluid in my tube in my ear .. which is ok cause its not infection but it hurts so bad.. i feel like a baby ... just complaining all the time to tim... but he is great and just takes super care of me :) he is a great boyfriend... hahah i know people are probably getting tired of hearing it but for reals i am not making it up.. i mean we are not perfect 24/7 we have fights over stupid little things that last for 5 mintues but when we are happy everything is good.. i believe in fairy tales and finding mr right when i see him smile at me for no reason :) i am one lucky lady :) i talked to brae-lynn on the phone the other day ... she is 2 .. i know i havnt been gone along time from home.. but she seems so more grow up on the phone and her talking is so much better :) she is so cute i cant wait to give them hugs.. all of them.. so i get home on thursday and me and my sister are going for a date night on friday... i miss her... being away from my family made me realize how great they are i know there are great but when you go away you just realize a lot more.. i know i repeat myself a lot in blogs but it is true I HAVE A GREAT FAMILY :) i also have a great BOYFRIEND .. i will miss him a super lot when i go home... but i know he is always in my heart and he is just a phone call or a text or a skype convo away... not being able to see him everyday well kinda suck but it will make us super happy when we get to see each other :) a super good quote

  long-distance relationships are the best, because when you've been missing that person whom you love, and when u see them, its all worth it :)

that by far is my most favorite quote cause it is true not being with tim for 3 months when we first started dating was tough but when i saw him for the first time and we kiss it was all worth it... yes we were a little scared but when i saw him coming down the stairs and just being like wow he is really here.. it was a great moment :) well i am going to take a little nap :) i love naps love them :) 

so i am just watching timothee play video games yes that is right... my boyfriend is in love with video games.. GRRR sometimes it is good cause then i can do whatever i want but at the same time it sucks cause he wants to play a lot ... ok so first of all i have an gross ear infection which is driving me nuts and it is hurting a lot like i cant hardly touch my ear.. so i guess i will go see a doctor tomorrow good job my dad told me everyday before i left make sure you get insurance .. ok so i had this infection for like 2 days now.. timothee is being nice and letting me use his hand that is the only way my ear doesnt hurt.. but then he moves a little and ouch.. no fun .. so i guess i can be snotty and just say well my ear is hurting a lot baby :) lol so tonight i will try snails :( i know i am totally grossed out by the idea but i will at least try it :) so thats good :) well we went shopping the other day.. my first experience all by myself shopping in france it was good :) one person starting talking to me in french i was like oh sorry i speak english and then he was like ok good luck in french... then when i crossed the street another person start speaking french to me and i was like oh sorry i speak english then he started talking to me in english :) he was nice :) so mmm thinking what else did we do ... oh ya friday night me and timothee made some super yumo bread bowl it was heaven right in my mouth so so good.. so last night we watch high school musical then tonight it is high school musical 2 then 3 tomorrow night.. well i am out write later

so i just uploaded my favorite song ever :) haha i am actually going to play that at our wedding haha yes timothee agreed which is ok cause i love boyce avenue but i cant write long cause we are going to church.. my last sunday church in france ok .. but i have to go cause i have 25 minutes to get ready yikes lol ok i write later

my new favorite song :)

stuff i wish i would of listen to :(

i am actually up pretty late this is the only time i can call my mom  cause she works during the day so that means i need to stay up to at least 1 to talk to her.. which i dont mind cause i love my momma:)
so my title is good... has i sit here all alone in my dark room well tim is just next store sleeping.. i think about stuff i should of listen to ..  so here is a list.. i am not sure how long it is going to be but oh well...
so 1) i wish i would of listen to people when they said dont get your hopes up.. ok yes i get my hopes up fast and quick.. i never think about it might not happen.. when people say they are going to do stuff they should do it.. i have learn not too has of today lol... also you should never cause if it doesnt happen you will think alot about it like what if.. what ifs always come along with it...
2) no use crying over spilt milk... lately i have been crying over everything :( no good... i have learnt not to cry so much.. when i am about to i just think about something that makes me happy :) they is no use crying over stuff you cant control... and there is no use wasting your tears on stuff that you can not fix...
3) when people tell you that you are going to need this in a period of you life.. trust me you will most def need everything that you learn.. i remember in high school taken french .. i thought to myself right i am never going to need this in my life.. GUESS WHAT... i do.. i should of listen to that and study more then i wont look like i am completely stupid when people talk french to me here..
4) things change.. ok i listen to this one a little.. but things change sometimes quickly.. my life has had some crazy changes .. also people change just cause a person change doesnt mean anything.. if you love this person enough then you shouldnt let the change effect your love.. i mean really people change all the time.. i change more then anyone i know.. i change my mind all the time...
so things i need to work on are mostly these things... i need to change i need to be the person i was before... i am still that same person just a little different.. i need to laugh more.. i do laugh but not has much.. i need to have fun and not let like things bother me.. i need to have faith in stuff.. i need to not be so snotty.. i need to not take my family for granted... i need to just be HAPPY.. also i need to meet boyce avenue it is a band that i love so much.. they are coming to france like 16 days after i leave :( but i will most def see them for sure.. i have a boyfriend who lives in france so of course i will be back :) ok well i took this photo today well tim was at school it is probably the only photo i am going to get with him till i meet him.. so that is my goal next year to meet boyce avenue and go to one of there concerts :)

8 days left

ouch 8 days left with tim til i go home.. grr the emotions set in has i write i am so happy to be able to see my family again i wish i was just going home for a quick visit then back to france.. but thats not the way it works... i will be coming home to stay well yes stay well at least for now.. but me and tim will see each other maybe in december then again in february... i will miss just being able to go in his room and hug him or just talking to him face to face.. but  i am so grateful for skype and texting and phone calls :) so thats is a huge bonus :) but thats the way things go right now.. but i am ok with it..  and also i am super in love with this boy
 so anyways tim went to school yesterday so i watch some youtube and movies and got ready so when he came home we went out.. we went to for supper at mickey d`s then it was shopping for something for his mac then after we went to carry i think thats the place and went for a walk :) it was cold but it was nice.. just me and him.. then when we got back it was strawberry cake time then we watch a movie well tim did i fell asleep haha i always fall asleep but the good thing is i can always watch them the next day well he is at school... ok so then the movie finished and tim woke me up to say ok you should go to bed.. i was like ya so i was getting ready to go and he was like or you can stay and watch me play video games lol i was like or i could stay and go to sleep while you play lol so i did :) so i had a great sleep .. lots of sleep means getting up early so i get up early but tim doesnt get that much sleep so i go in to wake him up this morning haha ya i was like you sleep i play on my computer and it was good.. but then i got bored so i woke him up so we can watch one tree hill. then it was lunch then he was gone to school .. so me i am going to watch a movie and shower then by that time he will be home again :) alright have a good day write later.. also hope you enjoy the photos :)

flowers :)

haha i know i said i will write later but i didnt ..i should write more often now that tim is in school and i have pretty much nothing to do but i watch alot of movies and have some me time which is GREAT :) not saying that being with tim is not great cause it is but me time is good too.. i think a lot.. all good things but a lot.. well yesterday i was kinda having a crapo day nothing serious just stuff so i watched some youtube videos til tim got home :) so i was watching la ink.. i always wanted a tattoo its weird i know but i will never ever get one but ok so i was watching the show and a girl that was on there had breast cancer and wanted to get a tattoo about how she survived and stuff... so she got a breast cancer ribbon with the quote "dont cry cause it happen smile because you made it :)" i love that quote.. but anyways back to my story.. so i am always exicited to hear his voice when he gets home :) so yesterday when i heard it i just smiled .. ok i am super in love with him.. but then i was in his room and he just walks in and just randomly creeps around his shelve i was like hello.. then i look up and saw this super cute flowers  :)

i was like aww then he pulls out my most favorite cake every :) i love it so much.. a strawberry tart cake.. it is so good i cant even describe how freaking awesome it is..

 needless to say my crapo day turn out to be the most best day ever :) well not even.. but it was a good day :) then after that we talked a lot just about us and all the stuff.. after we had the convo i felt really good... then we eat some of the cake played tetris :) i think i kicked tims butt ;) then we went to sleep...

so i woke up way early today hahah super early so i just stayed in my bed and just looked out the window then i needed to go to the bathroom grr i hate waking up and wanting to lay in your next warm bed then great you need to pee :( so i went lol then after i was like i could go back to bed or i could go and wake up tim for some cuddle time before he went to school so being the great girlfriend that i am i woke up tim :) lol i go home in 10 days ... i am so mixed with emtions when i think about going home.. i mean i wanna go home.. see my family :) but that means that i have to leave tim :( going back to long distance.. texting.. phone calls.. skype.. which is good.. but being together is way better.. on sunday this guy talked to us in church about relationships and stuff..  it was nice but he said if you knew its meant to be no matter how big or how many mountains are between you it will work out.. i was like wow thats awesome.. thats what i needed to hear.. well today was another day in the france world.. actually i talked to jura kool.. ok i love her and i didnt even meet her yet.. she is about the only person on the planet who i can relate to and who knows what i am going through.. i feel so much better just being able to vent to her.. :) she is great :) i cant wait to go to vegas and meet her :) well write later its movie time for me ..

:)

today was another good day :) i love france i love it :) i am still crazy pumped to go home.. :) i am just going for my sunday nap :) well tim plays video games i think he likes my nap time or when i fall asleep early :) i actually dont mind watching him play video games :) i know :) but i am good lol so today we went to church and it was good :) lots of people who spoke english :) ok so i just wanna write how much i am grateful for tim... i am a complainer i complain a lot mm A LOT hahah tim will totally agree with me so thats good :) but i am grateful that he translators for me :) i realized that it is not easy for him but i still complain lol haha if you look up complain in the dictionary my name and face will be there :) but oh well he loves me and my complaining ;) i will work on that :) also i am crazy pumped for jura kool to be in blog world :) i love how i can talk to her about long distance and french boys :) even tho i dont but i will :) she married one of tims friend:) but i am going to have a nap :) write later

sorry i havent been writing faithfully like before but oh well :) sorry for no bedtime story last night adrien :( but yesterday was a good day.. i get lots of sleep here.. so i get to sleep early haha so in the morning i wake up early at like 9 or 10 and i lay in bed for awhile then i get bored and wake up tim :) i am also nice well waking him up.. hahah i dont know if he is happy to see me cause he looks at his watch and says uggg its only 930 lol WAKE UP lol so yesterday i chilled with tims brother and sister in law while tim was in school.. they are so funny :) like awesome people :) then tim came home and we went to institute they were talking about marriage and all that good stuff.. then after we went to mickey d`s then came back to his house and went in the jacuzzi and watch a movie the last song .. not has good as i thought but still it was ok :) then it was game time for us both lol i play tetris his plays call to duty :) then i fell asleep while watching him :) but its another day and we are going to have a fun day today.. i think we are going to hang out with some of tims friends and get some ice cream :) so tonight it will probably be movie and some cuddle time :) i love it here.. tim is great :) well have a good day :)

lucky i am in love with my best friend :)

so the title haha we just finished watching glee now the song is in my head :) which is ok with me :) ok so if you have been reading my blog faithfully you will notice i deleted some stuff :) ok so i am not one to talk about my feeling i sooner write them and tim know all about that.. i sooner write him a note on facebook then tell him whats wrong he hates it.. but i have been getting better.. but anyways we talked about the M word lol and it made sense that we should decided it between us and it doesnt really need to go on my blog.. and so thats it.. its all good.. tim is very understanding .. i always write nice stuff about him and people are probably thinking ya right.. but for reals guys he is so great and nice and super funny.. sometimes he tells jokes about bad timing but its good still.. so nothing really is happening.. i need to grow patiences and believe in myself more but in time that will happen.. i go home in TWO weeks.. like i said before i wanna go home and see my family but i dont wanna leave tim ;( we have been together since august but its great sure we sometimes have dumb fights but only last for like 2 minutes and then bam its over.. but i love france its nice and wonderful :) so whatever place i am in i will be happy :) well i gotta go.. have a good night blog world.. hey for the people who read this.. thanks for being interested in what happens in france and with tim and me :) i think i will probably write when i go home but maybe not has much but thanks for reading ... :)

 so i only have like 2 weeks left in france.. :( i am happy to go home and see my family i miss them... not as much has i would thought... like dont get my wrong i miss them.. but when i leave i will miss tim alot... like alot... i just  get teary eye of the thought of leaving him.. i know that we are strong and we can do it.. but it will be different not waking up in the morning and going to wake him up or him waking me up.. or just chilling .. or kissing.. i think i will miss that the most.. lol.. jk... but so my days have been going good.. time flies when tim is in school... i watch movies that i know he will never watch actually he would probably watch them.. i love how he watches one tree hill with me and grays anatomy and glee.. i know he probably just watches them to keep me happy and that is fine ;)
so tim is at school right now.. and me i am sitting in my room... thinking of what movie i am going to watch and going to shower and get ready for tonight.. :) well have a good one

happy thanksgiving :)

ok well today was an ok day.. tim started school... so that pretty much sucks butt hardcore... so i just watch some movies online and played his playstation haha yes i think thats the only time i can play it.. no i am just   kidding he does share with me alot.. so when he got home i was so pumped to see him.. it felt like i havent seen him in forever... then we just cuddle for a bit eat supper... watch a movie well some and went to bed :( it sucks cause we have to go to bed early well he does i dont.. but i try to anyways ...well in france they dont celebrate it today or i am not sure if they even do i dont think they do,.. but i am from canada and i have tons to be thankful for ....
my family :) i am so thankful for them :) i love them all tons...i have super awesome parents who love me and support me in everything :) i have an awesome sister and brother in law :) they are great and so fun .. i have 3 awesome nephews zack logan and josh... who i love so much... they all are super funny and say random things all the time.. i love it they make me laugh so much.. 2 nieces brae-lynn and cassidy :) i was super excited when they called and told us that she had a girl :) boys are great but girls are fun :) i love them... brae is so dramatic sometimes but is so funny.. and cassidy is getting so big
i am thankful for tim.. tim is equally important to me has my family we have been dating for 5 months well almost... now i am not sayinig that we are prefect... but we love each other alot and at the end of the day we know that no matter what happens things between us are real and nothing is going to come between us.. i remember the first time i saw him he was a missionary,... and the first time i talked to him i remember talking with my hands acting out stuff... just so he would understand :( wow i was a nerd back then... but has time moved on and i heard him play the piano... he grew alot in my heart.... then it was time for him to go back home ... so i was like ok i am probably never going to talk to him he will be busy... then he called me between flights on his way home and called me when he got home he got home on saturday and we were dating on monday...now he has my whole heart... .. but with tim it is different he is different he taught me and showed me what real love is..  he is great .. he cares for me and loves me .. he makes me smile, laugh, and i know he loves me..
i am thankful for tims family.. i have just know them for a little while but as soon has i meet them they were nice and welcoming and so funny.. i am sure its hard for them to talk to me cause i dont know very much french but they are speaking english  and sometimes i can understand them when they ask me questions and plus tim helps me alot by translating so another reason why i love him :) he has patients with me .. but his family they are wonderful funny people
i have so much more to be thankful for but i must go to sleep i will write tomorrow.. night

DISNEY WORLD

ok so i took a little longer cause we went in the jacuzzi and watched grays ok ... so DISNEY WORLD is mmm AWESOME we arrived around mmm like 10 or 1030 and we just walked around mmm HOLY PEOPLE .. so we got some fast passes for space mountain and then we went on its a small world.. it was pretty cool and we watch a show well waiting to go on space mountain.. so having a fast pass means you don`t have to wait in line for a long time.. so we walked there i heard people screaming.. so we finally arrived sit in our seats and i am a little scared at that point tim decided to tell me that people actually died on this ride.. ok he was just joking but i was like yikes then before i could say another world we were off.. ok so it was twirling and going fast and all these stars i pretty much screamed and closed my eyes.. which was ok cause it was dark.. so next ride pirates of the Caribbean it was a super cool ride.. then we walked around some more went into the castle :) pretty sure i wanna live there.. then it was lunch... then we walked some more then watch another show.. then it was parade time.. then we went on peter pan.. then it was supper .. so tim lost our passes so we couldnt leave the park to go out with his family for supper.. but that was ok .. we were at a magically place so we went to the blue lagoon.. which is a cool restaurant you can see photos on facebook.. it was light by latrines and candles and also you were by the water cause you could see the pirates of the caribbean so we were pumped til we got the menu mmm FISh everything was fish and sharks and octopus hahah so we decided just to get dessert cause we are not huge fans of fish :) then we just got a burger.. then we walked some more then we went shopping.. it was great... we went into this store and i went shopping cause tim was playing with the guns and i was like i will be over here come and get me when you are done or i will come to you .. ok well i finish and i was like wow tim must be still at the guns.. well i went there no tim I walked around the store no tim.. ok so i was going crazy tons of people speaking french.. bumping into me .. ok so i was like i will just go outside.. so i went outside and two seconds later i saw him leaving another store across the street.. ok first i was so glad to see him second i was flipping mad he left me.. so we continued shopping then when we left the park .; he was like you know when i left you i was like oh yes... he was like i went to buy you something ok so now i feel bad for getting mad so i opened it mm the cutest thing ever.. it was mickey and minnie in a heart made of glass.. that said on the front disneyworld paris .. ok i have the greatest boyfriend mmm EVER :) then we left and we drove by the Eiffel tower at night.. it was awesome... then it was bed and plane ride every in the morning.. so then it was raining when we got back then we went to get tims dads car and then i went in to get my luggage and it was slippery yep totally fell and almost kicked an old mad:( but he was nice and help me up lol well gotta go :) later blog world

:)

i feel like i have so to write so if you dont understand or if i misspell  sorry i just feel like i need to write everything haha ok so waking up at mm 425 not cool but it was fun then it was off to the airport.. the plane ride was nice.. i am use to it now which is mmm GREAT.. ok so arrived in paris first thing first mmm eating at mcdonalds ... then it was off for a like shopping mmm there was a store called i love paris things were cool but super sorta expensive.. then we venture to Arc de Triomphe ok like we had to climb stairs swear there was 1 million then we were at the top... !t was nice to see the view of paris and the Eiffel tower... then we too versailles which is a huge castle mm BEAUTIFUL :) it was super nice the garden was mm HUGE and we went for a train ride around it.. it was sweet so after that... we went to MR EFFIEL.. ok so mm it was nice and strange not the tower but the people there were tons of people who just went up to us and wanted to steal us stuff.. it was annoying but hey i was at the effiel tower with tim :) so it was all good.. then we went down and walked around the tower then we went under it... then after we went to Notre dame and we went for all you can eat pizza YUMO then we drove by the moulin rouge then it was bed time.. ok i am going to eat so i will write about disney later ..

paris tomorrow

its 11:17 i am leaving for paris well tims house at 445 hahah and i still didnt even pack my clothes but i will soon lol so today was a great day i am blogging for tims room well he plays video games.. so today we went in the Jacuzzi and watch a movie it was good then we went shopping tim brought me a ring ok so its not a will you marry me ring but it is a super super cute one and shiny and white gold so it is mm BEAUTIFUL then we came back and gave his mom her bday present then it was upstairs and gametime well i showered and did my hair lol i know you are probably thinking why are you doing your hair so late... well i will tell you lol it is because we are leaving early and i dont wanna have messy hair in photos of paris hello the city of love mean i need to look at least nice..; well it is bed time i hopefully will write tomorrow night:::

happily ever after

hello blog world first i would like to say about my marriage comment that it doesnt make me happy of course marriage makes me happy picking out the dress and the flower and the ring :) its just being crazy and Cinderella got it easy... real life should be like a fairy tale you meet the prince and you know it the moment you meet he marries you takes you in a castle and you live happily ever after the end.... so the castle part i can deal with cause i always wanted to live in the castle but what if you dont know it the moment you meet what if it takes months or years does that mean he is the one or you need to find someone else.... for me i think you have only one soul mate one person who makes you feel like you can believe Cinderella and live happily ever after... ok so you might be thinking what is wrong with diana and tim?? are they not happy?? is he not her prince??? ok well nothing is wrong with us we are just fine and we are happy and he is my prince :) so it is all good...  we actually went on a date tonight.... to see the kids are alright... hahah please dont go see this movie... it was a waste of money we only laugh once and the rest was a weird movie... but we were together... and that's what matters... it was a nice day ... it always a nice day with him  :) I miss my mom i know you hear that a lot but my mom is great i cant wait to see her and give her a hug.... like i miss her a lot i cant tell her how much i miss her cause i will probably cry on the phone then she will start crying and then it will not be good... but i did write her a postcard and told her so i think she knows i miss her..... has for the rest of my family i miss them too... dont get me wrong i am not homesick like i love france i could most def live here which is good just incase i need to move here for reasons :) but i do miss my family of course it is normal ... but i am happy to be here... i love tim he is great even if he bites his fingernails a lot and it DRIVES me crazy lol but i cant think of any other place i rather be then here with him :) well i need to get to bed..... night blog world..... also tim wrote me a cute song :) it was way cute it made me cry a little ...

thinking

So tim is in the shower that means that i am alone with tons of stuff on my brain so i am doing this thing to keep my mind off of stuff :( 

1. I've come to realize that my chest-size...
sometimes bugs me  but i am ok with it


2. I've come to realize that my job...
is great my bosses are super :)


3. I've come to realize that when I'm driving...
I sing out loud all the time :)


4. I've come to realize that I need...
alot of things right now


5. I've come to realize that I have lost...
mmm


6. I've come to realize that I hate it when...

i think to much about something that i have no control over 


7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk...
i drank someone else`s drink


8. I've come to realize that money...
get spent away to fast


9. I've come to realize that certain people...
are super great


10. I've come to realize that I'll always...
have tons of lip gloss and hand cream


11. I've come to realize that my sibling(s)...
is a great mother and a awesome friend and i love her tons


12. I've come to realize that my mom...
is my best friend and i love her


13. I've come to realize that my cell phone...
is a piece of crap and doesn`t work in france


14. I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning...
i was pumped to watch one tree hill


15. I've come to realize last night before I went to sleep...
tim is great for tucking me in :)


16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking...
tim is wearing a pink shirt :( lol


17. I've come to realize that my dad...
is great and a wonderful provider for my family


18. I've come to realize that when I get on Facebook...
I never want to get off :( tim think i am addict i think he is right


19. I've come to realize that today…
i al going to paris in 2 days


20. I've come to realize that tonight...
tim and i are going on a date


21. I've come to realize that tomorrow...
i only have three more weeks left


22. I've come to realize that I really want to...
marry tim


23. I've come to realize that my butt...
is not so great


24. I've come to realize that life...
is not fair but everything happens for a reason


25. I've come to realize that this weekend...
is going to be super paris and disney world


26. I've come to realize that marriage...

doesn't really make me happy anymore

27. I've come to realize that my friends...
are super and when i get back date night with lisa times a million


28. I've come to realize that this year...
has changed so much and i had a lot of new and scary adventures


29. I've come to realize that my ex is...
is my ex


30. I've come to realize that maybe I should...
smile more :) and be grateful for what i have


31. I've come to realize that I love...
everything


32. I've come to realize that I don't understand...
a lot of things :(


33. I've come to realize my past...
i made a lot of mistakes but i have learned a lot too


34. I've come to realize that parties...
are fun with the right people

35. I've come to realize that I'm totally terrified...
of doing the whole long distance thing again :( 

well i write more later i have to go and get ready